Thursday, September 22, 2011

Stepping Out in Faith

I once again felt God speaking to me about why I am at TCC.  Yeah, why am I at TCC?? Well, I thought I was there to start (not finish) in Liberal Arts with an International Emphasis, then apply, and move along to The University of London.  Two nights ago I felt the Lord quietly speaking to my heart..I was there to get my associates in Child Development. WHAT?! Hm, thats okay Lord, I think I'll take my do not stop, pass go and head straight to International Development at a University- thanks though!

With lots of hesitations I stopped and prayed, "Lord is this really what you want me to do? Give me a peace, an answer.. I want to be obedient." I felt God say in that familiar voiceless voice, "Do you trust Me?"

So here I am..... working on trusting God. For some reason, still mostly unknown to me, I will be studying  Early Childhood Development at Tulsa Community College.  I have a feeling it is somehow linked to me helping children in Kenya and I specifically orphans.

It has been quite a struggle these past two days to have complete trust in God.  To my logical mind, this makes no sense.  I'm not even interested in doing Child Education, but I know this is all a part of God plan for my life, and for my family's life and OUR calling to Kenya and beyond.

Again today, the Lord said to my heart, "Do you trust me?"

I'll end this post with this verse from Psalms 121:

      "I lift my eyes up to the hills- where does my help come from? My help comes from the maker of heaven and earth.  He will not let your foot slip- he watches over you when you slumber... the Lord watches over you- the Lord is your shade at your right hand; the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night. The Lord will keep you from all harm- he will watch over your life.."


  1. oh geez, I needed this! ha thank you so much for sharing lady. Why is it that trusting God is so difficult even when you KNOW that his ways are perfect?!

  2. Isn't that the truth? Sometimes it feels like a constant stuggle.