Monday, June 18, 2012

While You Were Gone...

My husband was recently on tour for a little over a week.

I didn't think I would be bored or lonely, but I was :)  I'm just so in love with that man.  I did enjoy being alone and embracing the quiet, the stillness, the sounds of the outside world, and my thoughts.

I prayed a lot. Worshiped a lot. Danced in God's presence a lot.  I rejoiced in Christ's promises.

"lonely is healing if you make it. Lonely is a freedom that breaths easy and weightless"

Thursday, June 14, 2012

Fasting and Prayer

I have finally given into the fact that I NEED to take a break and fast from Facebook. 0_0 People (er, mom and the two mother people that read this), I seriously love Facebook. It's my outlet to the world because I am a stay at home momma.  Ah hem, that means the other person I interact with throughout the day poops on the floor and can't control his emotions.

Why am I fasting?! Oh, thanks for asking.  I'm fasting, not only from Facebook but from "alternative music" *old woman statement*, because I am asking God to break down some barriers and open doors that only He can open!

I'll let you know how it goes :)


Unitarian Universalist Church

I felt I was suppose to blog about this so... here it goes!

When I was pregnant,  I didn't feel comfortable in church and I certainly didn't feel comfortable around christian people.

Why? To me, my pregnancy was a visible sign of my sin and a big sign saying "JUDGE ME! I have totally had sex and I am so not married."  I am NOT saying Ian or Jordan were mistakes or sin, but I am saying that my life leading up to Ian was based on a lot of wrong choices and being led away from Christ's purpose for my life.

Since I didn't feel comfortable in church guess where I went to find acceptance?  All Souls Unitarian Church.  And ya know, its a beaaauuutiful place with amazing people, amazing music, wonderful cultural experiences, gay and lesbian pastors and couples, and some sort of spiritual environment of love.  I went because I felt I was not judged or looked down upon for this growing life in my womb.

Recently, I have felt that God is redefining me, God is teaching me right and wrong, God is showing me WHY and WHERE to find answers to my questions about worldly stuff through His word and Holy Spirit.

At first, I thought Christians could go to a Unitarian Church and still find God, but the truth is, a Unitarian or Universalist Church is a place of tolerance and acceptance of sin.  It is not a place where the Holy Spirit is present, but a place of a different type of spiritual confusion.

God is not a God of confusion!!!

All I know is that I am called, as a follower of Christ, to be set apart.  God's word is clear about issues and I have found that all I have to do is ask God to reveal His word and the right way to me.

Its a beautiful thing.