Sunday, November 11, 2012


God has done so much in my spiritual life the past year and a half.  It never ceases to amaze me and I'm not sure I could even fully explain it to people.

The Lord has taken me through a deep pruning process that has lasted roughly a year and a half.  Recently,  the holy spirit has brought to light my issue with fear. I did not realize that I have struggled with this for a very long time, possible since childhood!  Once we except fear it becomes apart of normal, every day life.  For me, fear is like my arm or like a part attached to my body.

Fear is a chain and heavy burden on my spirit, soul, and mind.  And I've been living with this for years.

Let me take a minute to explain how fear is effecting my life on a daily basis.

I am mostly stricken by fear at nighttime.  I can remember since childhood being afraid at night and letting my imagination take me to dark places, monsters under my bed, and weird figures hiding in my closet.  I remember being afraid to go out in the dark at night or in the garage growing up.  Or I remember being afraid to walk down the dark stairs and long (did I say dark?!) hallway to my parents room.  All this to say,  fear has been apart of my life for a long time.

As an adult,  when I get on the highway I visualize a car wreck, I think someone is going to hurt me when I walk to and from my car (in my own driveway). Here's another example, my husband works late nights (from 8-2:30am or later) so, that leaves me home alone......with Ian and the two dogs...... but none the less, alone.  I consistently think someone is going to break into my house (hello, we even have an alarm system!)  or attempt to break into our house when I am...alone.

 Do you get the picture?

It's gripping, life altering fear.  

I'm afraid to be alone at night, afraid to altering fear. And I didn't even mention getting in an airplane!! Hell no.  Ironic because I want to see the God's light to the world!

The holy spirit is really bringing  a lot of this to the fore front of my mind so that this can be dealt with.

I've been doing a study guide on fear, worry and stress and here are some encouraging verses that are really helping me in my time of fear and worry.

Proverbs 3:34 " You can go to bed without fear;

    you will lie down and sleep soundly."

Genesis 15:1 " the Lord spoke to Abram in a vision and said to him, “Do not be afraid, Abram, for I will protect you, and your reward will be great.”

Psalm 91:5  Do not be afraid of the terrors of the night,
    nor the arrow that flies in the day.

Psalm 112:7 "They do not fear bad news;
    they confidently trust the Lord to care for them"

Is. 51:7 “Listen to me, you who know right from wrong,
    you who cherish my law in your hearts.
Do not be afraid of people’s scorn,
    nor fear their insults.

Is. 12:2-3  "See, God has come to save me.I will trust in him and not be afraid.The Lord God is my strength and my song:  he has given me victory. With joy you will drink deeply from the fountain of salvation."

Is. 41:10  " Don’t be afraid, for I am with you.    Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God.I will strengthen you and help you.  I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.

Psalm 56:3-4 "But when I am afraid,I will put my trust in you.  I praise God for what he has promised.  I trust in God, so why should I be afraid?   What can mere mortals do to me?" 

 Psalm 27:1  "The Lord is my light and my salvation— so why should I be afraid.  The Lord is my fortress, protecting me from danger, so why should I tremble?"

John 14:27 I am leaving you with a gift—peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid."

Deut. 31:8  "Do not be afraid or discouraged, for the Lord will personally go ahead of you. He will be with you; he will neither fail you nor abandon you."